. 26 years old . singapore .
. music lover . loves movies n dramas . reading .
. singing . cycling . pool . travelling . sleeping .
. emotional . worrier . shy . adventurous . weird, lol .
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Purchase List
i've got so many things on my list, i don't know where to start, haiz. so many things, so little money. maybe i've become stingy, hahaa... alrite, some are neccessities, while some are just wants *blink blink*
- bluetooth headset (my earpiece is gonna spoil anytime)
- clothes!! (quite a few banned by b, i've got soo few pieces to wear now. need to buy something nice for cuz claren's wedding. gss now, gotta buy asap! hehee)
- levis jeans (i've got a $60 voucher, but haven't found any particular model tat i like yet)
- jackets
- digital watch
- mouse (the right-button of the mouse in my office is spoilt)
- speakers n subwoofer for my ibook
- new cage for my hamsters
- spectacles (my current one gives me headache)
- bracelet (a proper one, havent found any i really like. if have, oso cant afford, keke)
- sneakers
- sandals (my sandals broke while i was shopping!)
- mp3 player (its gonna spoil anytime too)
- bag (one broke, 2 tore. sobz!)
think i better find time to auction off some of my old stuff. so at least i can clear them, get back some money, n buy new ones!! heeee.
thinks.. my birkies, clothes tat i bought n never wore, which r too big/small for me now. anyone who wants to make any donations to 'jer's charity fund', u're most welcome to contact me :P
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1:17 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
i miss you
it was the first weekend we didn't spend with each other
there was a constant battle within me
so is this it? can't we work it out?
should i just let go? can't we compromise?
i had no answers, neither did you
the past 2 days were excruciating
lying in bed, spacing out
eyes red, tears running down
i fall asleep from mental exhaustion
i told myself i would probably be fine after some time
i told myself not to contact you
but i guess my heart won over my mind
the things you messaged me last nite weren't comforting
i got worried
i had difficulty sleeping
i didn't know if i should go see you
woke up from a terrible nightmare feeling very scared
i decided to go, it took me alot of courage
i was afraid the nightmare may come true
but yet, i had to make sure you were alright
it was a sigh of relief to see you sleeping soundly
i fought within
if i should leave the breakfast on the table and go off
i'm glad i didn't
holding you in my arms, with tears running down
i realised how much i miss you
i don't know if we can work things out
this time, i'm going with my heart again
i wanna give it another try
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i know many of you are very concerned about me
i'm so grateful to be blessed with so many people who love me
you know who u r, n i know u'll always be there for me
love u all loads n loads n loads
MUARKZ
listening to: butch walker - promise
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1:15 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
wala wala
i finally had my dosage last nite... after sooooo long
well,
the band is still freaking good :))
brought back some memories of when i frequent wala in the past
i used to go there 2-3 times a week, no fail, hahhaa
so yeah, after such a long absence, i totally enjoyed myself last nite
wooohoooo!! rock on!!
oh yeah, n i didn't smoke at all during my time at wala
heee, so proud of myself :P
listening to:
heart - love hurts
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11:57 AM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Singapore Theatre Festival
i'm rather exciting about
STF, from 2-20 aug. presented by
wild rice, we're gonna have 3 full weeks of new plays for our very first STF here in singapore. i'm already contemplating to watch a few... so many plays, so little money, lol.
listening to:
butch walker - cigarette lighter love song* thanx to
ruok for the intro of tis good (n cute, might i add) artiste ;)
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12:29 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
My Onion-head
itchy backside me went for a haircut yesterday
i was planning to leave my hair long
so i told the stylist, 'maintain length', 'fringe trim abit'
the end result... SHORT
i've lost my fringe
and wasted all my effort of leaving my hair longer
now its even shorter than b's
n i think it looks like the top of an onion
SOBZ!!
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3:17 PM
Monday, June 19, 2006
quit smoking part 3
ok...
so as the title goes, tis is the 3rd time i'm planning to quit smoking
hahahaha
oh well, at least i try :P
the 1st time was over a guy
the 2nd time was cause i decided to get healthier
tis time... its taking a toll on my wallet with the ever increasing price
and, i intend to stay healthy too lar, keke
so, the first 2 times lasted for a year each
i'm jus gonna finish my final pack now n be done with it
same goes for b
though i seriously think i'll do very much better
i've never experienced any kinda withdrawal syptoms or such, whenever i quit
i'm thankful for that
just as long as i put my mind to it
all i need is some self control
lets just see how it goes
damn, tat also means i cannot pub or go ktv too often
if not, i'll be soooo tempted!!!
grrrrr... self control, self control
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2:35 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
to ah boon...
boon, u were my saviour last nite
i would have blown my top if u didn't happened to be around
u're such a darling... n yet so irritating at times, hahaha
but thanx for alwaz being there for me when i need u
no lar, i'm not angry with u abt the prev incident, heee
i'm not so small gas wan lor
btw, lurve your office.. will go bunk there again soon, lol
n please remember to buy me something during your germany trip, keke
have a great trip!! :P
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2:45 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
it's going nowhere
the industry is going downhill
higher competition, smaller profit margins, lower sales figures
retail shops are closing down, or changing hands
customers delay payments
their bosses refuse to answer the phone
some even disappeared and escaped payment
even the bigger chain music stores r going with the trend
dragging their credit terms twice, thrice longer than usual
how are we as suppliers gonna sustain then?
i'm so sick of all these shit already
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12:18 PM
Busy Monday
so yes, my family was kiasu and we celebrated father's day on monday. had a pretty filling meal at rice tables. yw came along... bill was split btw bro n i, n he paid me less than haif of the amount, grrrrr..... ok, so tat makes yw my gf too i suppose, since i paid more, humph! okok, i shall not be so petty n keep harping about tis. i've already complained to mum, n she said i should know my bro is super stingy wan, lol. i'm glad she knows her darling son so well. she is to blame for spoiling him, tsk! :P
after dinner, i went on down to pasir panjang to meet the gers to celebrate ling's bday. june is a month full of bdays. tis is already my 3rd one, there's still more to come. so it was a small and cosy celebration with the 3 'babies' of june (i feel like an outcast, lol). we ate some cake, had some drinks, small talk, n watched some soccer. ling had a group of the cafe staff singing her a birthday song, n a brownie ice-cream on the house, keke. how nice :)
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12:00 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
Celebration at Corellian
ok... backtrack a lil. last fri, we went down to corellian to celebrate zhen's birthday. been a while since tis usual bunch met up. n it was pretty nice to see everyone come. imagine, we used to meet like 2-3 times a week. nowadays, its pretty difficult. as annie said, now its maybe 2-3 times a year, lol. opps! no lar, where got so bad? keke
anyway, below r my 3 fav photos :)
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2:30 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Don't Tempt Me
after getting a lil bonus... i got trashed again
arrrggghhhhhh
!#@$#^%*&*)*$%#$@!$^&
listening to:
jason wade - days go by
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12:13 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
NewFound Jealousy
spunky's having a concert at the esplanade
yay!!! i'm going, i'm going
peeps, do
check it outgogogo, for some good music
i believe its gonna be brilliant :)
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4:33 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
We're Free!
the exams r finally over. it so feels like as if i'm taking the exams as well. coz i gotta accompany b in the library everyday. during b's revision, i'll usually be surfing the net, reading, stoning, or sleeping, hahaha. has been lidat for the past 2 months+ i think. yay!!! its over! no more books, no more libraries, no more kallang macdonalds!! :))
its time to workout! my membership at planfit has just expired. went down to calfit with jo last week to check it out. they offerred us a pretty attractive package, so we signed up! 3yrs of membership! hahaha. b's with them too, so it'll be pretty convenient for us all, heee. we can go to any of calfit's clubs as and when we feel like it.
jo n i will be goin down for our first session after work today, n she's decided to ask the gers down as well. i can jus imagine now... 5 of us scampering around the gym, hehee. feel like a school girls outing. its time to lose weight and tone up gers!!
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10:31 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Dear Lord
please give b the wisdom and skills to do well for the 2 papers today, and
please stay by sl for her operation tomorrow, keep her safe and sound
amen
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a few of my close friends are in the midst of breaking up, or having frustrations and have the intention to break up.
its fate that brings 2 persons together and it takes alot of factors to keep 2 persons together.
no 2 persons are exactly the same, thus there's bound to be conflicts now and then.
i'm someone who doesn't like to argue.
i don't see how it helps the already existent problem(s).
in fact, it just makes things worse.
you should just think things thru with a clear mind.
other than thinking for yourself, you gotta also put yourself in your partner's shoes.
sit down, talk to each other in a nice and calm manner.
work out what can be done to improve the issue.
how much you value this relationship?
of course, all these are easier said than done.
many people tend to raise their voices and say things they don't mean when in a heated argument.
many say they can't control it when they're angry or upset.
for me, i'm especially scared and sad during such moments.
it really hurts.
i'm no saint myself, there are times i lose my temper as well, but such times are rare.
i'm blessed with alot more patience and control in such situations than many of my peers.
anyway, if all these 'discussions' have been done countless times, and the issues don't seem to get resolved.
one tends to get mentally tired and lose track of whats the purpose of being in an unhappy relationship.
maybe, it'll then be time to reassess the whole relationship.
if its worth keeping it going?
if both parties would be better off with someone else?
nobody likes to feel pain and get hurt.
and some tend to become very self-protective.
but ask yourself, should you give this relationship another chance?
or have you had enough?
listening to: keith urban - tonight i wanna cry
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9:55 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006
......
i'm sick and feeling vulnerable
i'm not sure if u know i'm putting in alot of effort
but sometimes, u're not making things any simplier
listening to... rascal flatts - what hurts the most
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11:50 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
to those who care...
i know u all are concern
i know u nag for my own good
i know you worry about me...
worry that i'm being bullied
worry that i'm being taken for granted
worry that i'm giving too much
worry that it's all not worth it
as u know, i've always been like this
just that tis time, it seems more extreme than the past, haha
some of u may think i'm a fool
some of u may think i'm just confused
some say i'm overboard
whatever it is, i know what i'm doing
some things are so unexplainable
i can't make any logic outta it too
but this is just how it is
and this is where my heart has led me
let's just all be happy ;)
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8:50 PM
