. 26 years old . singapore .
. music lover . loves movies n dramas . reading .
. singing . cycling . pool . travelling . sleeping .
. emotional . worrier . shy . adventurous . weird, lol .
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Gone
the death of my lost-soul blog
diary-x is down... permanently
there goes all my stories and memories
it hurts that i've lost everything! everything!
sigh...
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4:50 PM
NiceNice Weekend
it was more or less a rather nice weekend.
friday was rather frentic. after some last minute arrangements with senses and maze, i only managed to join the gang at 12+am, heee. it sure was a BIG surprise that everyone managed to attend tis last minute gathering, even suz!! so how can i not be around? better late than never. haha, but then again.. as usual, jean was nowhere in sight :P but anyway, we did some catching up, crapped around and had a belated birthday celebration for suz.
it was theatre sat! went to catch 'never the sinner'. its based on a true crime story about the leopold and loeb murder case in chicago back in 1924. they kidnapped and killed a 14-year old boy for no apparent reason. hmmm, maybe one - thrill. it then proceeded on to how the hearing went in court and finally the sentencing. overall, the plot was good, the acting.. was just ok. have to agree with B that paul hannon did overact the role of loeb a little. though i guess its to portray that loeb was rather mad, haha.
next stop, to dempsey to eat durian! heee.. then it was ktv from 12-4am!! tired!!
sunday was sorta rest day... 'sorta' cause i still seemed to be sooo occupied at home. thinking back, i really don't know how come i spent so much time doing what i did. in fact, i didn't complete everything that i planned to do for the day! sigh. anyway, went to accompany B for 'supper' at night.
you surprised me with that note. it means so much to know what was mentioned in it. i'm so very happy :)) sooo sweet of you *muarkz*
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4:47 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
You
i thought i really lost you there
you have no idea how happy and glad i am
you made me realised how much you meant to me
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11:12 AM
Look Out!!
i was driving to work yesterday... something got into my eye and i was rubbing it
next thing i know, mum screamed at me tat there was a man on the road
i swerved to the right n barely missed him
thankfully there were no other cars around me then
if not, i would have got into yet another accident, a major one this time
n thankfully i didn't hit him
if not, you would see me now on the papers, a murderer
that old uncle seemed oblivious about what just happened
he was still taking his own sweet time jaywalking across the road
grrrrrrrr....
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10:55 AM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
疼你的责任 - 品冠
每次你任性时说的一些话你知道那有多伤人吗但我顶多只气个三分钟吧最后依然体贴的送你回家有时想如果我不是一直让你也许会懂得学着体谅但是我完全无法硬着心肠做得让你有一点难过失望总觉得有疼你的责任要你是最快乐最单纯的人因为你让我的心变得丰盛原来不奢望的变成可能总觉得有疼你的责任让你做最轻松最自然的人我想不遮掩也是一种信任爱得了解包容才算爱得完整----------------------------------------------------------
heard tis on the radio while driving to work today.. n i felt it pretty much describes how i'm feeling now. at times, there are just some things, some behaviour, that we can't explain... it is just so
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4:01 PM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Self-Control
certain happenings
brought back some unhappy memories
now, i still keep my cool
years ago, i would have reacted differently
repeated occurrences might still bring out that side of me
a part which i don't wanna see
thus i hope it will not happen
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being accomodating is suddenly perceived as being emotionless
do u really wanna see the other side of me??
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2:45 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
- untitled -
some things i didn't know
a surge of emotions
what was always there
something that will always last
sometimes, it takes certain events
for us to realise how much it still means
proceedings in life
a shift in priorities
what has changed
something else to care for
sometimes, its just the way of life
but yet, some things would never change
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1:05 PM
Gotta find a balance
we hear so often when friends grumble that their partners are being too possessive, too controlling, causing them to have inadequate breathing space. so what about people like me, who's usually more accomodating and not possessive? people tend to feel i'm nonchalant.. sigh.
i'm a reserved person. i'm not very expressive with displays of affection. people may thus find i'm not loving. how then would my partner know what i'm thinking and how i feel? i understand... this is not the first time i'm hearing these 'complaints'. i've heard it before from some of my ex-es too, haaa. sigh. sigh.
i guess we just gotta find a balance in everything. not too much of this, not too much of that.
on the other hand, friends usually find me being tooo nice to my partners. that i'm spoiling them, that i give too much. i mean, who doesn't want to see their partner happy right? if its within my means and limitations, why not? i feel having too many expectations and being calculative in a relationship will do nothing but start destroying the relationship. you're constantly counting if you're receiving enough from what you've given. isn't that sooo tiring? i'm not very confident, i just find all these issues taxing.
a relationship which i try not to look far ahead. a relationship which still lacks the trust in both parties. yet, in every way i'm going deeper into it, putting alot of effort into it.. i fear too, but currently, i'm happy. we have different threshold for different people. yours being exceptionally high. just want you to know that i'm not indifferent, i do care.
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12:41 AM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
V'Day 2006
B was asking me what i did during v'day last year. not remembering anything, i went to check up the archives of my previous blog.. and i don't have any entries written about it, other than a review on the 47th grammy awards, haha. so i reckoned i must have prolly just stayed at home and 'dated' my telly :P
i haven't celebrated v'day much for the past 25 years. it just seemed that i'm usually single during this time of the year. think i celebrated not more than 3 times in all. how sad, haha. but tis year, i happen to have a valentine :) we didn't do much actually, it was a very simple affair. in fact, we didn't feel sooo 'v'day' afterall. i guess with age, most things just seemed to be downplayed. B was asking me if i'm sad, coz there's nothing romantic about our nite out, haha. nahh, silly.
experienced yet another 'first' with B last nite. i got into my first car accident! it was my fault! no worries though, everyone was safe and sound. it was just a minor one, with scraps and scratches. and the guy was pretty honest and friendly, which made me feel even more paiseh. B sooo doesn't wanna be the 'first' in such an incident with me, haha.
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8:43 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Weekend @ a Kelong
I spent the past weekend at tis kelong in m'sia. its called
hotboys kelong. the name is kinda gayish if u ask me, haha. but no, its owned by 3 straight singaporean guys. we boarded the mini-van at P's house at abt 6.45am. then took a boat at tanjung leman jetty, finally arriving at the kelong slightly before noon.
haha.. actually the 4 of us don't fish at all. so what did we do during our 2D1N there? we took loads of photos, esp D and i. B kept grumbling i rather take scenic shots than take photos of her, lol. but really, the views were magnificent! its like you're on top a platform, with no barriers between the sea and yourself, and the sky awesomely spreads before you :)
we then played mahjong (yes, i played!!), memory game, heart attack, mahjong solitaire, blackjack, pool, sang ktv, ate, drank, slept. the last time i played MJ was during my sec sch years!! so yeah, u can say i know nuts abt MJ by now. but it was still fun. B kept testing me... stress -_-"
the meals were pretty good, we had 4 meals a day. soon after dinner, we started our ktv session, heee. we sang for like abt 4-5 hrs i tink :P by 12+am, i was getting a lil hot. coz we brought a bottle of martell n red wine (which we got taxed at the m'sia customs, kns!), n we finished all of them!! the neighbouring kelong started a display of fireworks, nice!! it was really long, lasted for almost an hour. so it was a nice and cosy nite of songs, alcohol, fireworks and sea breeze.. sounds like heaven huh? heeee
too tired, din manage to wake up to see sunrise.. but nvm lar, at least we managed to see sunset the previous day. trip back was barely bearable. its prolly coz we were tired, and it was so freaking hot!! having to sit at the back of the mini-van, travelling along a very bumpy road doesn't help matters either.. headache!!!
first thing we did when we got back to singapore.. go adams rd hawker centre to eat ice jelly and ice kachang!!!
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by the way,
haPPy vaLenTine's daY everyone!!!
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3:47 PM
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Walk with Me
i've embarked on a new expedition for two
its something i could call my official first
i overcame the initial fear of setting foot and taking my first step
being drained and afraid
being reserved to be giving, afraid of losing
everyone of us has a past that shadows over us
but i did what my heart told me, i went with my feelings
i still can't see where i'm heading in this journey
but i wanna give it a try
for it has touched me in a certain way
you could say i'm stubborn, you could say i never learn
and i know its not gonna be easy
the warnings have been given clearly right from the start
it was my choice
trust and compromise has to be earned
feelings and love has to be nutured
i do not know when all the obstacles would be pulled down
so i can at least see a certain route we could take on
or when there will seem no more purpose to continue this journey
all i know now is we have taken this on
i can only take a step at a time and see where it brings me to
will you then let go of your fear and walk along beside me
within my means, i'll try to make it a happy trip
for the both of us on this expedition
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2:04 AM
Friday, February 03, 2006
Wala-ing
finally dropped by wala last nite after an absence of slightly more than a month. totally enjoyed myself. i missed the music, the
band, the place. like to say sorry to the barflies for taking over one of your tables, paiseh.
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1:39 PM
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
A good start for 2006
the few days of hols for cny has just gone by in a flash. too many places to go, too little time. sad to say, i didn't get to gamble a lot tis year. its a far cry from last year. but still, it was very much better, at least i won, keke. quite paiseh though, won all of sk's relatives' money. though invited, i didn't dare to go back the next day, heee.
2006 has been good so far. i'm very happy now. it came as a surprise. i was even afraid of it happening. the past has left me jaded. then again, everything was so erratic and happened so rapidly, it didn't even give me ample time to think. but what is there to think? i have to let my guard down in order for me to receive. and i have, i have received an unexpected source of happiness :)
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2:56 PM
